Monday, June 19, 2006
im out with zaki again.But dis tyme round, its a bit weird coz usually, he will onli bring me out once a yr! no joke! but dis tyme round, its de second tyme dis yr. hmmp.
i have always wished tt ma relation with hym will be a fantasy. But fer de past 4 yrs, it was one-sided. Out of stupidity i guess. Howeva, late last yr, i have promised maself to start a new chapter for maself towards hym. A chapter where i onli noe tt HE's ma frewn. Only frewn. Howeva, todae 's outing was a fantasy fer me. I wish it happened three years back. But sharks! it happened now. im in dilemma.
Met hym at small mac tamp at 4pm. He brought up a suggestion to catch a movie at TM! WTF! gossip dude. Thus, i declined it. I hate to watch movie at GV. sooo small man. Therefore, we head to Bugis. ma fav. cinema. We catch The Omen. well, tt story line has a tamil version. i have watched it before. soo, i kind of noe its ending wen i watched its climax. hmmp. In de cinema, as per normal. he took of hys jacket to keep me warm coz im sick. Just to inform euu` guys, he has never kissed me directly on de cheecks or watsoeva. Unlike me laa. i did kiss hym every time we met. But de funny part was, he kissed me directly on ma cheeks! i was shocked! but i keep it low profile. paisey lol. BUut de mos unexpected part was, we french kiss. NO JOKE! i was very very very shocked!he did tt. p.s. he knew i was attch. i knew hym 5 mths later after im with arif in 2002. i was soo paisey. i blushed. But was he did was, he gave ma a warm hug.
PLUS!Things went very very wrong when we reached esplanade. we sat down on de rocks. It was a cooling nite. & also fer us. The contacts between us went too intensive. too intensive. heavy frnch kisses & so on. At tt moment. Both me & zaki wished tt nite will never end. After all, its a fantasy fer me. I felt tt, it was a miracle fer me to have such an adorable touch from hym now. but why now? I did brought up a few question about his weird behav. He did ans me. But still, im not satisfied. hehex. i'll foreva will not! = )
Howeva deep in ma heart.. i wondered " zaki, why now? why not last tyme wen im crazy over euu`? y did u reacted dis way to me wen i have oredi open a new chap fer us? "
Thus, how a bout ma hubby? Coz i believed i will get carried away with dis incident . I noe i will coz, its a miracle tonite. A miracle which i believed a fantasy fer me. De Fantasy t i longed from hym. haha. ZAki & fizah. I must be insane. Thus, wat i knew now is. Im in dilemma. I love ma hubby. But things went soo wrong.
i love u hubby. i guess i have fall fer u again zaki.
1:28 PM
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